#2 - Retrospection
I have been in places(mentally) that I am not proud of. There have been times I have caught myself thinking about things I should feel ashamed to feel. Wrong, unethical things and sometimes I don't understand them. I think to myself sometimes "Is my moral compass astray?" I have done things I am not proud of, small things most of the time; Once when I saw an injured pigeon and thought that good that it happened to that creature even though I inherently don't hate pigeons as much. Other times they are life altering decisions- like breaking up with my girlfriend and cutting off from every other friend I had for a long time. It was just something I did when I felt down and needed someone to blame. Honestly I don't even know why I did what I did. I wish I had better self awareness. Self awareness, this word always reminds me of that one greek story about Androcles and the lion. The lion was constantly attacking villagers at night and going out of its territory thing...